Well the wedding is today, im all "dolled up" i didnt think i would like it so much but its kinda lovely the job they've done. i just dont really want to stand out really if you know what i mean. I have to read a poem about love infornt of nearly 150 people today :/ shouldnt be to bad, i hate public speaking but it isnt a complicated read and i just need to remeber to pace nicely. I havent put my dress on yet, but i hope my hair and make up match it right >: i did not put anythign shiny or anything in my hair its jsut curled (omg i know my hair? curly?) and some of it is brought up. I'm going to ask my mum to take a picture so i may show you guys. I doubt I will ever look like this ever again unless i get married my self. even for prom i hardly looked anything near this.
I kinda feel alittle lonely, its been a cold summer and i ahve no one to snuggle, i saw caitlin once and feel better though. its not so bad, im jsut tired of tryign to be happy like and social with relatives and newly met soon to be family...

anyway my brother is an usher so we have to leave extra early, the wedding is downtown and such... i'm off to try and carefully eat some food and close my eyes without laying or siting back. then i have to pee and then get dressed and hope i dont get my period today >: